Monday, August 9, 2010

A year later... And life keeps moving.

So we have hit and passed the one year mark.

I have been home in my tiny town for over a year now. I have left the drama back in California (as much as could possibly go). I have found this stability that I am still trying to get used to. I have been with my dear, sweet boyfriend for over a year now.

I feel as though I haven't come very far; yet when I look back I see where I started and where I am and I become thoroughly amazed! Go ME!

So, with that said. I have kinda been freaking out lately due to wanting to be further along my road than I am. So I am thinking I am going to take on a new point of view. Here's my list:

1. Get some running shoes and start running!
2. You started school so finish it!
3. Start quilting! (Now to save up for the classes and the materials needed!)
4. Turn on your creativity!

That's all I have currently but I will continue to add to the list.

Oh hey, forgot! 5. Start meditating! Get used to being with yourself!

Ok time to get back to work.

Love & Light!
A

Monday, March 22, 2010

Life and its way of sneaking up on you....

Life has a horrible way of sneaking up on you sometimes, first it starts with having to deal with the death of a friend's baby son, then off to seeing my ex for the first time in over a year and I also get to meet the woman I was left for, then my dog leaves and the my childhood cat dies....

I feel as though I have been through hell and back lately. Rowan past and all I can think is this baby who hadn't even  made it through his first year has left this world leaving behind a mom, dad, and twin sister and family who will miss him terribly and never know him as a grown man... This BABY! It's not fair.

Seeing my ex was HORRIBLE! Not because I miss being her significant other but I am so sad to see her miserable and with someone who doesn't even seem to appreciate her. Her fiance has a horrible aura about her. She's full of resentment, cynism, and anger for life it seems.. I feel sorry for my ex. She doesn't deserve the miserable life she has now.

My baby dog was here for 2 weeks and I felt whole! It was so wonderful to have all my children together and have Tippi in a loving environment. The evil fiance tells my baby that she isn't wanted.. It makes me so angry and frustrated that this is being allowed!!

And lastly, my beautiful Vicious cat was found dying yesterday. She was almost gone when we found her. It was as though she was still hanging on, it was one of the worst things I have ever gone through!!! This cat was my comfort when no one else was. She took away my tears and fears and loved to be apart of my circles that I casted in my room.

My dear Vicious, you will be miss terribly!! Rowan, I know that your mommy and daddy and sister are missing you dearly and I am so sad that I didn't get the chance to meet you and see you smile! Blessed Be my dear ones! See you in the Summerland.

Love and Light,
A