Where I am now.

Well to start off I suppose I should make certain that all the facts are on the table..

It took me 8 years to get home - and now I am. I am in love with a man who makes me so happy most days I smile from ear to ear because I can't believe this is true! Happiness is a complete prayer come true for me.

I have been home 4 months now. I have gone on a few adventures and am enjoying my time here. We are getting an apartment together in a week, and I am nervous on living with him though I am sure it is nothing the nervousness is still there.

I am also having an anxiety of not living with my best friend any more. I am afraid of being distanced from her again. It was so hard being without her for so long while I was gone. I know I am going to have to work hard to keep her close as our lives have definately gone different paths. I am sure that I will probably get married and have children before her and that kills me. She is such a good person and deserves to have that (before me!!) especially since they have been together for 8 years!!!

Also, I was introduced to a new friend yesterday. We can call her T. T is a very creative individual and she has struggled to get to there. She is a truly blessed woman and it shows from everything she takes pride in! I spent a few hours with her yesterday and in those few hours the creativity started to flow once again. I have many ideas flying around in my head once again and I hope to start and finish many projects in the coming months. T has blessed me with someone who doesn't judge but who hears and listens and bounces back with thoughts of her own. For that I am truly grateful for a new friend - and I hope that we grow to be closer.

I have started to read from my UMS work again and I need to sit down and do my budget so that I can send them a payment and get the next lesson. I am really excited about continuing this course because I felt like my brain was mushing again - and I don't like that feeling at all!!

So between my honey and my new friend T - I am truly blessed these days. Wish me luck with the apartment. I will write again soon!
Love & Light
~A